weathered, tan herbarium notebook
je suis tres excitement!
sipping cafe on a flight. i forgot how much i like travel and i’m in the worst part of it right now lol.
lord i’m really struggling with my thought life right now, would you lead me to a better place mentally. reorder my desires to look like a well ordered man.
there was a child coughing this whole flight, would you give him relief today lord?
mbas are general purpose models, phds are pretrained models.
the more i track how i behave and observe how others act, the rarer true intelligence seems to be. we make many low-level decisions each hour, mostly based on what we’ve been told to do or what we’ve done before.
spaced repetition trains the mind. i don’t want to be unintentionally repetitive. i want my self-training to be intentional at every layer. i need to circumvent the urges to repeat what i’ve done before or instinctually do what i’ve told.
in italy
hoplite = round shield
contemporary art seems to blur the line between what is literal and what is sensory.
jewish quarter - jews couldn’t buy material goods so they used gold and diamonds. eventually, they issued loans to the government since they had liquidity.
the trains are super quiet here.
girl checking her ig story views while sitting in front of work by raffaelo sanzio
no quiet time leaves the mind cluttered and blind
lord of lords, king of kings, your heart does not rest in the stone or dirt, but rather the flesh. you’ve created each of us and called us your temple, your church.
often when i release a fact, insight, or thought i’ve come in contact with, i expect others to receive what i’ve said as a profound revelation, in order to be seen as a profound revealer. this is vanity. my strangest and healthiest self chooses not to take myself seriously, and laugh at my inevitable egoisms.
he who stirs up bitterness in response to being misunderstood has a cold heart. melt this heart of stone and clean my hands lord. you are an all consuming fire. light be ablaze.
when the roman empire fell, it broke into kingdoms. napoli, in the south, was the biggest.
normans occupied at one point sicilians are distinct.
early art was both propaganda, news, and storytelling.
i am grateful for the families you’ve built for me. you know my innermost thoughts and delivered me to environments of growth, challenge, pain, and in all deep bliss.
the wise one need not participate in the mistake in order to learn from the mistake.
lord how do i structure community well?
jesus, this week has been a war. a war against turning women in consumables. my vain desires for possession was stoked by my impure eyes. i stoke my sexual appetite with the stick of a lustful eye, the spark - a wandering imagination.
you gifted me with an imagination. i repent of being a poor steward of it. peace reign in my heart, mind, eyes, imagination.
may wisdom echo in the antechambers of my soul, heart, and mind. holy one of israel, thank you for considering me worthy of saving when i am worthy of the pit.
in roman culture, the wealthy would study art or greek culture in their daily “lazy time.” understanding greek culture was seen as a high status thing in roman culture. the rich had running water.
you can tell what type of building something was by the threshold. no kitchen in average roman house, they would need to shop in the city. average family house had two rooms, bedroom upstairs and shop downstairs.
wine mixed with honey was a delicacy.
roads were also used for waste disposal.
roman society was deeply sexist.
the pursuit of knowledge is a lovely thing, but some knowledge is more worthwhile.
if that is the case then one should not sacrifice attention for every bit of information
your ability to calculate risk goes down as more people are doing the thing.
much of success is a function of how you deal with failure. persistence pays.
being healthy is necessary in managing stress. health = good friends, loving family, sleep, exercise, nutrition, sport. sugar is poison.
“capitalism without failure is like religion without hell” - munger
short selling business provides incentives for finding fraudulent companies, but on the flip side it motivates investors to make companies fail.
most insurance companies lose money on the insurance and make money on the float.
find people you admire around you and adopt the top traits you admire.
i’m optimizing for impact, not income or image. i want to be so many things!
i think you’re beautiful
humans seldom do anything new in an objective sense, but many do new things all the time.
you see, it’s not that something is new for humanity that makes it beautiful or brave, but how it is new for that individual.
it’s not newness that makes a flower enchanting. if we’re honest, flowers are quite repetitive and common. no, it is this fact: that particular flower was inclined to bloom in that particular place at that particular time and you had the particular chance of encountering it. the newness isn’t the enchanting part. the particularity is.
humans are awfully particular and terribly common. but they are john, anxiously sweating in his first meeting with a new therapist. they are lana, producing that painting of that one hill that 1000 other people have painted, but this is different because it is lana’s hill - do you see what i’m saying?
they are claire, the 8-year-old being dropped off at school for the first time, overwhelmed by the chatter of her peers who seem to already know each other.
it’s not a lie to say life is dull, repetitive, cheap, and common.
this can be hard to stomach. you are not novel at all, especially not in the ways our post-modern world narrates.
your art is not new.
your thoughts are common.
your traumas are regular.
but -
they are particular.
how romantic!
won’t you come be particular with me?
i’m not interested in repetition anymore. i want us to reinvent ourselves over and over, shoulder to shoulder.
albeit it’s selfish, but i think it’s important you do this with me.
you see, you are truly novel to me. utterly new. full of idiosyncrasies and past loves. hopes and traumas. stories and nervous tics. common, particular things.
how can you not fall in love with humanity?
you are that particular flower to me.
please, love, i need you to understand the root of all this.
life does not change.
life IS change.
and, dear reader, change looks glorious on you.
PRC made shenzen a special economic zone. in 1980 there were 50k people there. between 2010-20 in one small neighborhood in the western side of town there were 58k filed patents.
china is as urbanized as the us was in the 50s. young people are moving to the urban areas
50% of all shipments are in air freight
2 years ago mexico became cheaper than china
an economy is just an accounting system for the trading of goods and services.
if i read instead of going on social media i’d have a much happier life
i don’t deeply connect with any group i hangout with these days. is it me?
market depth. most people are price takers. overton window as a market - the range of social acceptability having buy and sell pressure (left/right pressure). AR glasses will be mobile because humans are mobile.
words are super high dimensional vectors. ai (cognitive), social media (social), crypto (financial) - all powered by words.
national comes from natal which means people group. nations come before state.
i feel weak.
unable to control myself. i’m not confident that i will do what i say i’ll do. this hurts my confidence and ability to commit to things.
i can’t hear god while i’m in the middle of my sin. i’m losing my grip on life. i’m easily distracted, my room is a mess, my car needs to be fixed, i keep telling myself and others i’ll do things then i don’t do them. it hurts my trust in myself.
so what are you going to do about it joe? it’s up to you to fix this, no one is coming to save you.
new rules:
don’t get back in bed after your alarm
no YT or social media between 8am-6pm.
we’ll start with that and work from there.
do work upstream and downstream stuff will be handled.
spirit > truth > health > influence > wealth
it’s easy to forget what matters. i generate interesting thoughts often that i want to remember. i’ll live an embodied life. everything held with an open hand, with deep gratitude. it’s for freedom i’m set free, that’s all. deep thoughts aren’t all important. do justice, love kindness, and walk humbly with your god.
“man always kills the thing he loves, and so we the pioneers have killed our wilderness. some say we had to. be that as it may, i am glad i shall never be young without wild country to be young in. of what avail are forty freedoms without a blank spot on the map?”
aldo leopold
“i have become all things to all people to share christ with them.” - paul
i’d love to spend a few years of my life composing classical music.
awareness is using the surface area of time to leverage information.
leverage - 1oz of force leveraged = 1(x)ozs, in the same way information is imbedded into our awareness and perception, generating 1(x) pieces of information where x = length of time x maturity of awareness.
the whole world teeming with life. microbe to beetle to fish to dog to horse to elephant to blue whale. what an incredible world
“to define america, her athletic democracy.”
“the best way to become a good writer is to write good writing. if you are writing for applause you will go home with empty packets.” - walt witman
peninsula park.
harmony. photoshoot in the shade, traditional mexican garb. picnics in every nook and cranny. old friends catching up. new romances being written. accented by mown grass and 1000s of bright roses. tribes of every nation playing in the public fountain, giggles echoing through the park. runners and dog walkers circling the enchanting display, getting their steps in.
it’s 93 degrees. just right.
a band is warming up for their concert tonight in the field, leaking out riffs and drumbeats, screeches and scuffles.
so many colors, voices, and stories.
absolute.
harmony.
polymaths are people that have deep mastery of multiple things.
learning another language teaches procedural knowledge assembly.
world class performers generally are low maintenance and seek low maintenance relationships - density of meaning and connection, not optimizing for frequency of interaction.
keep your sleep and wake times consistent.
grip strength can be a measure of nervous system health.
everything is controlled by the nervous system. gaps between neurons are synapses. control neural modulators to control the brain.
neural modulators:
dopamine
epinephrine (adrenaline, derivative of dopamine, puts us into action mode)
Serotonin
Acytocolene, controls release of ?
collaboration is internal open-source. the company is organized not in divisions but as a complete stack.
the best form of leadership is to follow.
an artificial god of my own making can comfort me all the time but heal me none of the time.
morning dew
sweet as religion
waxes my soles
on the stroll
to the local
coffee spot
so many sleep walking governments.
“there’s nothing quite as permanent as a temporary government program”
71 trillions dollars controlled by the boomers. 1/7th of the world’s total assets controlled by 76m people. 1% control 1/7th.
i just fainted on a hot air balloon for about 40 seconds.
pulque is like beer.
4Ls/day for 6 months. maguey plant is magical! paper, fiber, cleaning chemicals, stitching/needles, dye, syrup, water, and more.
uses chalk to change the colors.
chak mole - observers of the universe, sacrificing people’s heart. on aug 13th city road lines up with orion’s belt and milky way, is aligned with magnetic n/s
happy birthday me! 22 years old. thank you for another year lord.
the one who brings blessing will be enriched. he who waters will be watered.
at 22 elon had 2 internships and was in school, larry ellison just encountered computer design
21,529 days left on this earth
21,520
the days tick by
don’t fill them with madness
interoceptic - feeling the skin inward
exteroceptic - feeling the skin outward
where you can go purposefully, you will discern your reactiveness. dopamine scales neuroplasticity
practice leads to theory
a border is just consensus. the drake equation, multiplying probabilities to prove alien existence
political truths: $ value, who’s in control, borders
technical truths: devices, physics
everything affects everything. be careful.
make a decision and follow through or your most surface level desires will decide for you.
you do not want a life run by shallowness.
i love you joe. i mean that. i like who we’re becoming. we’re on the path. we’ve come so far. imagine the trajectory.
you’re 22, that’s a lot of years.
foundationally impactful things:
nepal
teddy
intel
ricky
being alone
orenco
jerry
joanna
laura
bt
i’m 22, i’m young, but the clock is ticking. time is scarce, at least on this earth and in this body. it feels true that it mostly matters who i’m being developed into.
i have many ideas of what i could do.. could get a starlink setup and move to a cabin. problem is i need community.
bank of japan owns 70% of all land. housing and wages are always the longest lags. we have the largest number of retirees in history.
tokenization puts brand and community on the balance sheet. ai is creating a world where we don’t know what’s real and what’s fake.
“they tried to bury us but didn’t realize we were seeds.”
the rider needs to be aware of the horse. not a struggle but a dance. get to know yourself. we’re all people with multiple personalities.